Is it joy or fantasy?

i am in a different world now...
i am in a strange land now...
it feels like a fantasy land...
it feels like a amazing land...

Life is so beautiful...
life is so colourful...
yet, there's something missing!

i donno know if it's my brain or heart hissing...
but i know...i am lost now...
yeah...yeah i am lost now...
always looking at something
that would reflect at my identity...

i see my reflection in the mirror...
and laught at myself...
who's this? who have i become?

i didn't want to be like this,
i didn't want to be someone that i am not...

yet something has changed now....
no...everything has changed...and is changing...

i am lost....i am lost.
i am lost to find the meaning,
i am lost to find the strange feeling,
i am lost to find the strange land i had been dreaming,

yet it feels so good....good to look at god's creation...
and smile at his beautiful creation...
i don't wanna miss this....i don't wanna go away....

(if u r wondering what i have written about......it's just what passed through my mind in a shopping mall..:):)..)